Still heading somewhere but really nowhere

Running is still mainly disappointing to be honest, even the little bits I'm doing these days. If I hang in too long, I get sick. I've lost track of how many times this has occurred. Last time was about four weeks ago, I jogged easy for about 45 minutes and then had a cold for a few weeks.  Running 2-3X my usual sad and sorry distance was a poor choice in retrospect, but it honestly felt okay at the time.

So what do I really want to get out of running these days? Stroke risk reduction? Increased allergen exposure because people are always mowing grass around here unless it's pouring or 30+ degrees. 

There's so much wasted space filled with lawn here. I feel like I get nowhere. There's no place I can run to that gives me a frisson of something, anything.

There are no endorphins anymore. 

But if I can coast along for 15-20 minutes a few times a week without feeling too much like shit, maybe that's enough for now. and if I achieve better consistency, maybe I won't keep getting sick. And I'm walking more at least. Average daily mileage (walk/run) in 2024 was 5.6 miles/day. So far, it's 5.5 miles/day in 2025. 

So maybe things are going well :)